Wednesday, April 22, 2009


I am beginning to get worn down. Being essentially a single mother everyday but Saturday is starting to get to me. I felt somehow that because we adopted them and I wanted them so badly that I would never have these feelings that alot of parents do and I feel selfish for feeling this way. I feel guilty asking for help because everybody is busy, everybody has alot on their plate, it's not just me. But man I'm getting tired. I need a shot of energy soon or I'm going to lay down on the couch and never want to get up again.
In other news Alex decided to use the side of Daddy's truck as a chalkboard with a rock..... uhhh yeah. These are the days of my life....sigh.

Sunday, April 19, 2009


Sundays at our house are always melancholy days, Kevin has to go back to Canada and then the boys and I are left to our own devices. Today was a day like no other. Started out the same Kev leaving the boys and I eating lunch, boys to nap. I had started getting a headache earlier but wasn't too bad, around 2:30 it really hit me. It was so bad I called my mother-in-law in tears asking her to come get the boys. She quickly came and picked them up, and I went to bed. Woke up 2 hours later and felt fine. I have never had a migraine but I'll tell you if that is even 1/10th of how bad a migraine is I think I would keel over from the pain. I think my tolerance for pain is ok but that headache kicked my ass. The boys were so sweet....Mama don't cry, I love you Mama, are you okay Mama??? I am raising 2 amazing little boys.

Thursday, April 16, 2009


As some of you may know I spend alot of time on the computer in the evenings unwinding from my day and I have a few blogs I follow regularly. One of them is this, the story of beautiful little girl who was born too soon, fought like crazy to live, was loved beyond measure, and left this earth too soon. I fell in love with this little girl and her family like so many others and followed her daily adventures with her mom Heather, dad Mike and favorite sidekick Rigby. I had seen the post her mom had left that they had to rush Maddie to the hospital in an ambulance. Just like times before I thought that little girl is a fighter she'll pull thru. Imagine my horror upon logging on to Twitter to find that Maddie had passed away. There is something so wrong with a child dying before her parents it goes against every law of nature and to all of you who are parents or who love a child it is your worst nightmare come to life. I can't possibly imagine the pain that the Spohrs are going thru every minute of every day, I wish that this was all just a really bad dream that they could wake up from. Unfortunately it's not so I hope that you will join me in supporting the March of Dimes and donete some money in Maddies name using the link on the sidebar of my blog. Please do all that you can....such a small life that has made such a huge impact on this world.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Long time coming

Look who came to our house....the Easter Bunny
Easter morning

Uhhhh yeah, no posting for a while( try 5 months). In my defense the lack of blogging can be directly traced back to the same time as we found out we were moving to Canada and I became a single parent due to the fact that Kevin had to start work in November and is only able to come home on weekends. Whew that was quite the run on sentence....i think I'm finally settling into somewhat of a routine. It is getting harder and harder to go to work as Alex is having a hard time with me leaving. Today was really bad he was holding onto my hand and screaming bloody murder saying " No Mommy!!! Stay with me!!!" It just about broke my heart. Tell me it gets easier...