Wednesday, April 22, 2009


I am beginning to get worn down. Being essentially a single mother everyday but Saturday is starting to get to me. I felt somehow that because we adopted them and I wanted them so badly that I would never have these feelings that alot of parents do and I feel selfish for feeling this way. I feel guilty asking for help because everybody is busy, everybody has alot on their plate, it's not just me. But man I'm getting tired. I need a shot of energy soon or I'm going to lay down on the couch and never want to get up again.
In other news Alex decided to use the side of Daddy's truck as a chalkboard with a rock..... uhhh yeah. These are the days of my life....sigh.

1 comment:

Paula said...

Hi Susan. It is normal for all mothers to feel overwhelmed at times. Parenting is one of the toughest yet most important jobs around! I've had the same feelings of guilt myself, especially since my first son was stillborn I thought 'I will never take my son for granted, he's such a blessing'. He certainly is and I couldn't live without him but daily life takes it's toll every now and then.

Sleep is very important for us mom's for our nerves to recouperate for the next day of 'blessings'! We have to pace ourselves. I strip off all the lesser important things to have the energy to do the big things when I'm low on fuel.

It also helps me to make more time for my son when I think of how he will look back on his childhood. Will he say I never had time for him? That I was always too busy? This makes me feel better about the sacrifices I make for him. What better investment is there than a little human being?

For me the biggest help, being a Christian is to 'pray my brains out'. Doesn't sound too attractive but I do pray for strength, endurance and wisdom. I have strong faith and it helps me cope.

Bill has traveled quite a bit for work over the years so I feel like a single mom myself but fortunately I have the privilege to stay at home right now. He gets up and goes to work many times before Clay goes to school and gets home after Clay is in bed. I have full responsibility of my son's care.

I can only imagine your struggle with working on top of maternal and household responsibilities. Kudos to you! You have a big heart and those boys will appreciate all of your loving care. When they are little and into everything it's a lot more work but the cute things they say and hugs they give us are such a reward.

Don't ever feel that you are alone. We are all feeling the same way sometimes. Hopefully you get regular check-ups too. Don't neglect your health. It could be a medical issue. I've been tired a lot and low energy so my doctor is sending me to have my thyroid checked.

Take care. Have courage. Enjoy as much time as you can with your gorgeous babies. They will be young men before you know it. =:-D

(((((Big Hugs)))))